My feelings are at an all time low. I’ve been feeling lonely all week, even if I’ve been with my friends all day. And as of today, I’ve been feeling genuinely sad. Issues is playing at McKinley Hill today, but I don’t feel excited. Not a bit.
The person I find most comfort in has yet again managed to shut me off. I feel like I’m of little importance to him now. When I complain that he doesn’t have time for me, he fights back and tells me “we’re together at school everyday”. Yes, school. But is that what you mean by time together? This is not a grade school puppy love relationship where you’re only allowed to be together at school and just in school. You used to take me outside, you used to watch movies with me. What happened now?
You’re the only one going outside most of the time, and you have a lot of excuses when it comes to me. And for the last couple weeks, you’ve cleverly ditched whatever promise you made to me. I’m so proud of you.
Last night, I told you I was feeling lonely. But before I told you, you got so angry at me because I kept chatting you up while you were playing. Right after I told you I was lonely, you never got back to me. You made me feel so many kinds of low last night; I couldn’t even count all that shit.
I was only finding the same kind of comfort I gave you when you told me you were lonely.
Love isn’t unfair. But people are.