I hope that you clearly know that I am not a superhero.

My skills have limits, and I hope you know that I only push myself for you so I can help you in any way I can.

But you always end up getting mad when I can’t.

  • It makes me so sad that you let me think that you're the only one with the right to get pissed and mad within this relationship.

  • And I'm even sadder, right now, because I honestly think you've lost all your understanding for me.

// 081714 8AM//

My feelings are at an all time low. I’ve been feeling lonely all week, even if I’ve been with my friends all day. And as of today, I’ve been feeling genuinely sad. Issues is playing at McKinley Hill today, but I don’t feel excited. Not a bit.

The person I find most comfort in has yet again managed to shut me off. I feel like I’m of little importance to him now. When I complain that he doesn’t have time for me, he fights back and tells me “we’re together at school everyday”. Yes, school. But is that what you mean by time together? This is not a grade school puppy love relationship where you’re only allowed to be together at school and just in school. You used to take me outside, you used to watch movies with me. What happened now?

You’re the only one going outside most of the time, and you have a lot of excuses when it comes to me. And for the last couple weeks, you’ve cleverly ditched whatever promise you made to me. I’m so proud of you.

Last night, I told you I was feeling lonely. But before I told you, you got so angry at me because I kept chatting you up while you were playing. Right after I told you I was lonely, you never got back to me. You made me feel so many kinds of low last night; I couldn’t even count all that shit. 

I was only finding the same kind of comfort I gave you when you told me you were lonely. 

Love isn’t unfair. But people are.

I let you to be a part of my world until you became it. Then you left, and I was never quite the same again.
My World (#18: April 18, 2014)

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Hey guys, look at this kitty. :)
His name is Donut. I bought him for Brandon last March 19, 2014. It was a reallyyy really late birthday gift. :))
Quite a pricey kitten, but worth every cent that I paid for. Just look, he’s so fucking adorable.

Hey guys, look at this kitty. :)

His name is Donut. I bought him for Brandon last March 19, 2014. It was a reallyyy really late birthday gift. :))

Quite a pricey kitten, but worth every cent that I paid for. Just look, he’s so fucking adorable.

I remember blogging so much about you; like my life solely revolved around you. Well, perhaps my life does.
I used to keep you like a secret (in which I realize right now that it was stupid to do) not because I was embarrassed about you or whatever you want to think—I kept you like that because I wanted to keep things private between us. What our progress is, what’s happening between us. I didn’t want the world to know about us yet because I wanted to enjoy only for myself the beauty of a new relationship right before my eyes. I wanted to absorb everything firsthand what it feels like to finally feel alive again after so many months of nothing but utter bullshit. In some way, you saved me from myself. You saved me from my own thoughts.
And right now, I want to do nothing but tell every person that I love you and I’m lucky to have you. Our relationship is not the best—we don’t really sail the calmest seas, but I’d rather experience all the bad days with you instead of having fun without you. I would not trade you for anyone else.
Thank you for being the best guy I’ve met my whole life. You might be an ass sometimes but hey, that’s you—and I love you. :)
Happy 14th, baby. I love you. <3

I remember blogging so much about you; like my life solely revolved around you. Well, perhaps my life does.

I used to keep you like a secret (in which I realize right now that it was stupid to do) not because I was embarrassed about you or whatever you want to think—I kept you like that because I wanted to keep things private between us. What our progress is, what’s happening between us. I didn’t want the world to know about us yet because I wanted to enjoy only for myself the beauty of a new relationship right before my eyes. I wanted to absorb everything firsthand what it feels like to finally feel alive again after so many months of nothing but utter bullshit. In some way, you saved me from myself. You saved me from my own thoughts.

And right now, I want to do nothing but tell every person that I love you and I’m lucky to have you. Our relationship is not the best—we don’t really sail the calmest seas, but I’d rather experience all the bad days with you instead of having fun without you. I would not trade you for anyone else.

Thank you for being the best guy I’ve met my whole life. You might be an ass sometimes but hey, that’s you—and I love you. :)

Happy 14th, baby. I love you. <3

18 years old, full of drama.